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(no subject) [Dec. 23rd, 2012|08:21 pm]
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Hi everyone it's been a very long time since I posted here I thought I was all better you know I still had the occasional moments but was happy and eating and seeming normalish not crazy depressed but now I'm back here I'm really scared my fiancé and I broke up a few months ago at first I seemed fine and I certainly don't want to be with them anymore I'm even dating someone new but I feel I am just sinking lower and lower my energy is disappearing my will to be around is lacking tears are just appearing randomly and I've started bp again only occasionally but I find I'm thinking about it continuously thinking about food and fat and weight and its terrifying me so I'm back just needed to read and write my thoughts
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(no subject) [Aug. 26th, 2010|12:10 pm]
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ive bought  a house !!!!!!!!!!! well a unit i move in in 3 weeks on the 17th sept
i cant wait ill have a new routine
get up at 9am go for a short but intense run (ill eventually make it longer hopefully but running gives me really bad asthma)
go home have shower get all my work stuff ready then at 10;30 me and my partner take saxon (the dog) for a 2 hour walk around the park
go to work at 1:30 til 7:30 (on my feet the whole time )
i cant wait!!!
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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2010|09:11 pm]
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5ft 3 97pound .... what i want to look likeCollapse )
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Update [Jul. 1st, 2010|11:05 pm]
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I went to the docters yesterday and theripist again today
my dose of prozac has been increased and my theripist wasn't do deal with stuff from when I was like 15 which is apparently why I'm so depressed and anxious
she also want me to go on the sickness benefit
Prozac is still reducing my appitite greatly
I haven't binge purged in days
now I just wish I had the energy to do some real exercise I'm so tired all the time ! And to make it worse haven't been able to get to sleep resently ....But did manage to take dog for a walk :)
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(no subject) [Jun. 28th, 2010|09:54 pm]
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psycholigist wanted me on meds
so dr put me on flouxitine (prozac)
i have put on so much weight resently
but i hadnt had any appitite since i started takeing them (4days ago) its not until i feel nausuos that i think oh mabe im hungry
but im going to take advantage of it while it lasts i will loose the weight ive gained plus some i will reach my goals.
i will weigh myself on wednesday and then everyday after i just wish i had some electronic scales in pounds to at least 1 decimal point
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2010|07:25 pm]
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(no subject) [Jun. 10th, 2010|09:19 pm]
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today i was dianoged with clinical depression
Ive been told before oh you are depressed you may have a eating disorder you are ednos you are bulumic you have the symtoms of bpd but its not severe enough to diagnose your normal your stressed your fine your not fine you arent functioning you are risiliant you are disosiative
everyone says something diferent everyone has a different approach
now im told most people are anxious which leads to depression but you are clinically depressed which is causeing most of your anxiety which might i add is getting worse almost daily
what next?
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(no subject) [Jun. 7th, 2010|10:16 pm]
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http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l31tedD7We1qb5yt0o1_400.jpg
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2010|12:36 pm]
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2010|09:56 pm]
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