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[Nov. 20th, 2009|01:03 pm] |
i woke up on tuesday and was like i have to days of work briar and i drove to oarmaru so random!!!!!!! stayd a night with grandparents and a night with frinds who are potato picking down there
have today of work am going to have 600cals
so far ive had half a cup of cherios = 55cal
and a black coffee
i need to loss sooooooooo much weight i am still soooo huge i cant beleive it!!!! |
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[Nov. 9th, 2009|01:00 pm] |
weigh day
i lost 3.3 pound
yay
thats makes me --kg
need to rewrite my goals as ia am almost a month ahead of where i planned
goals
--.-kg thats 1pound from now in one week ...thats the 16th nov
--kg thats 4.4 pound from now by the 14th nov
thats puts me at the goal weight i wanted to reach by the 14th nov but didnt think i could
so i was suposed to buy my dr martins when i reached this weight but i thought it would take longer so i am going to put them on lay buy on pay day and also but myself one of the vegan cook books i really want as i little extra something |
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[Nov. 9th, 2009|12:37 am] |
food-2/2
water-2/2
exercise-2/2
posting-2/2
self esteem-2/2
total-10/10
4/?/39
weigh day tomorrow!!!!!! |
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[Nov. 6th, 2009|11:47 pm] |
day 2
lets see
food- 0/2 i binge purged and now i feel so huge i wanna purge more but cant cos i friend is here and she watchs me as she is suspicios (also i know i shouldnt cos its bad but that doesnt really stop me)
water-2/2 only just tho today 3 litre if really icy ice water tomoorow ill drink extra tho i think
exercise-2/2
posting -2/2
self esteem- 2/2 i hosted a potluck dinner and it was a great success people turned up and everyone boughtt vegan food even if they werent vegan and everyone had a great time i think so that = fun (down side was it was really triggering caused b/p) but i am always terrified when i organise hings that no one turns up (and am kinda sociall phobic)so i am happy
total -8/10
2/?/18
weigh my self on monday
hope everyone is well
maggie
xo |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|11:56 pm] |
food- 2/2 ate 900 cals which is below my 1000cal limit and it was all healthy
water- 2/2 drank a good 3+ litre of extremly icy ice water
exercise- 2/2
self esteem- 2/2 i tried rice milk (i am vegan am usually drink soy milk and have been wanting to try rice milk for a while but havent gotten round to buyin it so i made a point of doing so today)
posting- 2/2
total 10/10
1/?/10
i weigh my self on monday with a very small goal of loosing 1 pound by then
hope everyone else is doing well
maggie |
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[Nov. 4th, 2009|05:15 pm] |
hey everyone
i am going to do this again starting tomorrow
plan
food- well im trying to stay healthy and not binge purge so
2points= 1000cals
1point=between 1001-1200
water- 3litres of iced cold water a day and 0 points for any less!!!
exercise- on days i work more than 5 hours i get two points automatically i work a very
physical job and on days i don't work or work less than 5 hours i have to burn at
least 800cals from some sort of purposeful physical exercise
and the rest is self explanitory
goals- as i said i am trying to be healthy i don't want to be disapointed as this leads to servere depression so i have a small goal of 3 pounds loss
maggie |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|08:59 am] |
goals
--kg (thats 1pounds from now) i get to put my dr martins on laybuy by this time next week tats the 9th of nov
--kg (that 3.2 pound from now) i get my dr martins by 7th of dec i now that isnt much in a month but i cant loss weight to quickly my mother is gettin suspicion
--kg(4.2 pounds from now) by the 14th dec
--kg (thats 7.6pounds from now) i get my hair cut
ultamatly i would like to reach --kg by the 14th dec but i dont think that is reasonable cos if i don't reach it i will get dpressed again
i have been purging more again
i start work full time again next week as i have finished my exams so thats great thats just continous exercise
so when i work full time im hoping to eat about 1000cal aday i will work that plus some of at work each day and it should prevent binging
i need to make a docters appoint ment for after my exam tomorrow |
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|09:49 am] |
i lost weight 2.5 pounds =happy for a few minutes
but then i realised how much more i have to loss!!
i will be --kg by next monday |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|06:14 pm] |
Weighing my self tomorrow
taking laxitives tonight again
I wish I wasn't so obsesed
I wish I could be happy
docter put me on citalopram
had bloods taken
and have a psycologist appointment on the 7th oct
I don't feel distraught anymore
just numb |
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[Sep. 24th, 2009|12:05 pm] |
hey everyone
i have a big day today
i am meeting my ex and she is taking me to the uni health centre. i don't know whether i should see a theripist or docter?
what do you think?
i kinda hope to get an appointment today so i don't have to think about it to long but most of me is terrified and wants to put it of as long as possible... i have written a list of things i do and feel to give them cos i know i won't be able to be honest when i get there
( list )
what do i do if they tell me im stupid and or to just get over it??? what if they think i just want attention?? or that nothings wrong and then ill be like this for ever??!!!
maggie
xox
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